Friday, January 25, 2013

Words of Wisdom

I went to a workshop a couple of years ago and during that workshop the trainer trained us to try looking at positive thing and say positive things about our team members.

There were about 40 of us in the workshop and we were divided into groups of 7-8 people. Some of them we had known earlier and most of them we just meet for the 1st time.

Anyway there were one session whereby we wrote something positive for someone we had known during the workshop. We were given cards and everyone can write something positive about someone and pass the card to him/her.

And guess what I got 6 of those cards from 6 different person. I was surprise to get them especially from someone I hardly know before. Hmmm nice things to get.

Alhamdulillah for what you've got

As Salam to All

I was once told by my ex-Boss, "kalau rezeki tu is for you, it will be for you. Just wait for it to come. Kalau bukan rezeki you, bukan lah". It embedded in my mind till now.  Now why do I say this. Recently there was an organizational restructuring in our Division and I was assigned to be the Head the Supply Management and Logistics Department. Never have I thought that I would be assigned to be one. But if it's for you, it's for you. I had been in the same Dept for almost 12 years but I never had the intention to be heading a bigger role.

It was announced one Friday evening by our New GM in the Division. He also mentioned that he had shown the new Org Chart to the DCEO and he agreed to it - giving me 6 months to prove it before the "real" promotion is given. Currently is just "acting" position.

I was caught off guard of this new development. Part of me was stunned but part of me was a bit delighted. It's a mixed feeling. More responsible to be burdened on me I guess.

Those who were close to me, they were very happy as well.. congratulating me. But there was one guy, who felt differently. I later heard he said to someone that "I was not qualified" to be the head. Of course when I heard it, I felt very annoyed. But then again when I remember the phrase "kalau rezeki tu is for you, it will be for you". When you work hard sincerely, one day you will be rewarded.

And looking at him, I later said to myself: if he is qualified, if he has a good attitude and if he is good enough, wouldn't he have been promoted long time ago. Tapi kalau dah hasad dengki tu ada, he will sees thing negatively.  

And later I was told that he wanted to move into sales because he mentioned that he can't get along with me. I wonder? Is it he can't get along with me or everyone can't get along with him? Orang kata kerja berkira sangat. I heard almost everyone had the same complaint on him. So why should I feel hurt if he complaint on me? If he is a sincere person, he would have told me directly and I would accept it. But hearing him complaining about me from someone else, that's made me having bad impression on him.

Those who are with me, not only they congratulate me, they were even happy for me. And that makes me feel that I should move forward without thinking of any criticism.

But because of that criticism, it makes me think. All this while when I heard people from my batch or even younger, were promoted to managers or senior managers, I always say alhamdullilah they have been promoted. They must have done something good and that's why they were promoted. I refrain myself from saying negative things. Because it's their rezeki. It's their time.

Every time the salary was credited into my account, I say alhamdulillah. I have money for me family. Every time we have food on the table, I say alhamdulillah. I have some food to fill up the  my family's stomach. Every time I had something good or bad, I say alhamdulillah. I practice that all the time. So maybe ALLAH blessed me this time for saying that all the time. 

To that guy.. too bad I am your boss now and I would not change because of you. To my positive friends, hey let's work happily together. I'm sure you have a good boss now hahahaahaa. Don't you agree. Just work hard sincerely and one day you will be rewarded.

And now I have to prove to make it!

Sunday, January 6, 2013

5 years has gone without her

As Salam to all.

I have not been updating this blog for ages. Until recently, 5 January 2013, it marked the 5th years of Ky's passing. How fast times flies by. It has been 5 years she has left us forever. The kids had been without their Mak for 5 years and I've been a single father for 5 years as well.

Pic taken at Garden Party in Shangri La Putrajaya

It has been a long journey alone taking care of the 4 growing up children. Mimi (10), Adib (12), Aizat (15) and Aizuddin (17) was at a stage wanting the loves of both Mak and Ayah. But ALLAH knows what is best for them. I believe there must be some hikmah for everything the Almighty bestowed anything upon us. They are now 15, 17, 20 and 22, respectively. All grown up handsome and pretty.

 Pic taken last Raya 2012

Being a single father is not an easy task. But I have promise arwah Ky that I will take care of them no matter what. So 5 years passed without any major disaster taking care of them. Of course there were times I wish I have someone to share the burden of bringing up the kids but then I always believe that ALLAH will help me no matter what. Everyday I prayed that ALLAH will help me in giving me strength to carry the responsibility to raise the. Alhamdulillah I have done my part till today.

To all husband and wife out there, my advise is very simple. Whilst your partner is still around, appreciate their presence - good or bad. It's our choice to make our marriage works. It's out choice to be happy or to feel bad. It's our choice to makes our life easier or makes it miserable. It's all about our choices. Because one of us us gone, we have no way to turn back into the time zone. It's not like back to the future film. No way. So make the best we can. Of course we have our ups and downs. But why not we have more ups than downs, right?

As for me, now I will only cherish all the memories Ky & I had together. I love to go down the memory lanes on how we met while we were students in Western Michigan University, the day we were pronounced husband and wife, the days Ky delivered our children (I was there in the labour room for every delivery), the days we had our Alaskan cruise trip, the days we brought Aizuddin & Aizat to Las Vegas and LA, and many many more.

And it's also good to snap pictures whenever you have been together. Cause that will keep the memories being together. As the saying goes, put the memories in pictures. And now with the digital gadgets, it easier to keep them in your computers.

Taken sometimes in 1998

I was very blessed to have family and friends that supported me all the way. No words can describe my appreciation to them for giving me advice and support in their own ways that had helped me to move on. They have been besides me all the way till now.

Although they were times the million dollars question were asked (guess what Question?), I just brushed them off with my million dollar reasons heheeheee... There's no way anyone can replace arwah in my life. She is very special person that had etched herself in me. No matter what. I know one day I will be remarried and I hope that lucky lady would understand the whole situation.  So who's the lucky lady? Tungguuuuuuuuu...!!!

There's only one thing I can say about Arwah... "You have been a great wife to me, a great Mak to our 4 kids, a great sister & sister in law, the best daughter in law and a person who had been significant to everyone who had known you!" May ALLAH bless your soul sayang.