5 years has gone without her

As Salam to all.

I have not been updating this blog for ages. Until recently, 5 January 2013, it marked the 5th years of Ky's passing. How fast times flies by. It has been 5 years she has left us forever. The kids had been without their Mak for 5 years and I've been a single father for 5 years as well.

Pic taken at Garden Party in Shangri La Putrajaya

It has been a long journey alone taking care of the 4 growing up children. Mimi (10), Adib (12), Aizat (15) and Aizuddin (17) was at a stage wanting the loves of both Mak and Ayah. But ALLAH knows what is best for them. I believe there must be some hikmah for everything the Almighty bestowed anything upon us. They are now 15, 17, 20 and 22, respectively. All grown up handsome and pretty.

 Pic taken last Raya 2012

Being a single father is not an easy task. But I have promise arwah Ky that I will take care of them no matter what. So 5 years passed without any major disaster taking care of them. Of course there were times I wish I have someone to share the burden of bringing up the kids but then I always believe that ALLAH will help me no matter what. Everyday I prayed that ALLAH will help me in giving me strength to carry the responsibility to raise the. Alhamdulillah I have done my part till today.

To all husband and wife out there, my advise is very simple. Whilst your partner is still around, appreciate their presence - good or bad. It's our choice to make our marriage works. It's out choice to be happy or to feel bad. It's our choice to makes our life easier or makes it miserable. It's all about our choices. Because one of us us gone, we have no way to turn back into the time zone. It's not like back to the future film. No way. So make the best we can. Of course we have our ups and downs. But why not we have more ups than downs, right?

As for me, now I will only cherish all the memories Ky & I had together. I love to go down the memory lanes on how we met while we were students in Western Michigan University, the day we were pronounced husband and wife, the days Ky delivered our children (I was there in the labour room for every delivery), the days we had our Alaskan cruise trip, the days we brought Aizuddin & Aizat to Las Vegas and LA, and many many more.

And it's also good to snap pictures whenever you have been together. Cause that will keep the memories being together. As the saying goes, put the memories in pictures. And now with the digital gadgets, it easier to keep them in your computers.

Taken sometimes in 1998

I was very blessed to have family and friends that supported me all the way. No words can describe my appreciation to them for giving me advice and support in their own ways that had helped me to move on. They have been besides me all the way till now.

Although they were times the million dollars question were asked (guess what Question?), I just brushed them off with my million dollar reasons heheeheee... There's no way anyone can replace arwah in my life. She is very special person that had etched herself in me. No matter what. I know one day I will be remarried and I hope that lucky lady would understand the whole situation.  So who's the lucky lady? Tungguuuuuuuuu...!!!

There's only one thing I can say about Arwah... "You have been a great wife to me, a great Mak to our 4 kids, a great sister & sister in law, the best daughter in law and a person who had been significant to everyone who had known you!" May ALLAH bless your soul sayang.