Happy Birthday Sayang

This is a special day for me. I know I have not been writing much since before the Hari Raya. But I told myself taht I have to blog today.

Why this 26 October is so special to me? It's because today is my beloved sayang 47th birthday. You see, as you know she is having breast cancer and until few months back, the cancer cell had spread to her liver. So currently she had not been feeling too good. She don't have the appetite to eat and even if she eats, everything will come out again. The Hospis doctor and nurse did mentioned to her that her liver had enlarged, thus compressing the stomach. As a result she felt that her stomach is full and could take much food.

I pity her suffering. But then again, she had to eat something to fill up her tummy. If not, she'll be getting gastric pain. Taking in pain killer or any other medication that create acidity in stomach, will eventually resulting gastric pain. That was what happen to her before the Ramadan when I had to rush her into the emergency room due to her unbearable gastric pain.

A couple of days before Hari Raya, and Ky wanted to do some cooking. You see, our Bibik had gone back for 2 months Holidays in Indonesia. So as usual, she wanted to prepare Laksa Johor to Hari Raya at my mom's place. With extra work done in the kitchen, she had a swollen right arm. She told me that probably she sprained her arm while cutting the onion. But I personally don't think so. With some consultation with her cancer friends, she found out that it was because of the reaction of the lymph nodes. For about a week, her right arm were swollen like double the size of her left arm. It was also very hot. I mean real hot and not the ordinary warm. The only solution was to cover the whole arm with a ice-cold towel. Eventually after a few days, the swollen subsided. However her appetite still wasn't that good.

On Monday night, I took her together with Acik (who had vomiting and purging due to food poisoning) to a nearby clinic. Whilst Acik's was a minor case, Ky's case was slightly serious.

The doctor that we went to see was about 70 years old Punjabi Doctor. What I like about him was that although he is a bit old but he has full of wisdom and gave fatherly advise. Initially I told him about Ky's cancer and that currently she didn't have the appetite to eat probably due to the enlarged liver.I also told him that she had not been able to eat the last few days. But this experience doctor calmly said that her stomach pain is because she is not eating at all. That also triggers the stomach pain. He said that Ky had to eat anything or if you can eat, eat an elephant for that matter. It doesn't matter what she want to eat but eat! (I remember that word) Eat a little at a time if she can't eat the whole plate. Take vitamins even though with empty stomach rather than not eating anything. He even told Ky to take "air kelapa muda" to replace the loss of sugar and salt in the body. It may sound simple but it make sense to her. So she did what the doctor told her to do.

Alhamdullilah as of yesterday, she had improved her appetite. Thanks to the fatherly advice of Dr. Premjit Singh. Well to me she is now a bit better and can eat a bit more that before.

So today is her birthday. It really meant so much me. At least she now reach her 47th birthday after more than 4 years plus of having breast cancer. Every new day meant something to me and our kids.

I know I couldn't do much to help her with her health, but I always try and will do something to make her life a bit better. Yesterday after work, I rushed to Petaling street to buy 2 dozens of red roses for her birthday. At mid-night when she already went to sleep, I arranged the roses in a crystal vase with a birthday card on it and put it on the dining table. Hopefully she is surprise to see the red roses for her in the morning.

And I am planning for a surprise Birthday party for her this Saturday night with my friends in the business - after all they are coming for Hari Raya anyway.

Happy Birthday Sayang! May Allah showed us the path and let you be fully recovered from whatever circumstances you are facing. Allah is Great and Merciful and I'm very sure that he has something in store for you.