Friday, September 7, 2007

Al Fatihah for Mazariwan

I received sms very early this morning around 6.40am. My first initial thought was this sms came from my logistic service provider updating me the cars they put onto the ship. Or probably my staff who can't turn up in the office because of MC. But when I checked the sender, it was from Azlee the McGyver. I was astonished when I read a message saying that one of our friend passed away.

I read the message twice just to confirm was it him or his father. But for sure that it was him. Millions of question came into my mind. Why, how or where? The why is more prominent question but still there's not much answer to it.

So when I came into the office everyone were talking about him - being such an active guy who plays takraw and volleyball and at his age of mid-thirties, I still can't believe that he is gone to meet the creator. We were informed that he died in his sleep.



Allahyarham Mazariwan
- Al Fatihah my good friend

I had known him for many years now. When I was in Corporate Planning, I dealt a lot with him, who use to work in the R&D. He would once a while come to my office to get information for us or I would summon him for R&D reports. Sometimes he would just dropped by for a chit chat when I'm free.

The last time I remember dealing with him on the unpaid invoices to the service provider - who got to pay what! But we managed to sort it out. Later I met with him again in his office while I was on my way to a meeting.

Reminiscing back, actually I hard time remembering his name. When I first know him through the phone, I mispronounced his name. From Mazariwan to Marizawan. Or I sometimes I called him Maraziwan. Such a peculiar and hard name to pronounce. A tongue twister name. It took me quite a while to pronounce his name right.

Mazariwan that I know is a kind person and always respect me as an elder. He is somebody that you would want to have fond memory of, someone who you can easily to deal with, someone who would always put up a smile when you bum into him.

Probably that is why the creator takes him. As I have heard before "Allah will take the good guys first". (Not that we are the bad guys who are still alive?)

Al Fatihah Mazariwan. May Allah place you amongst the place of the faithful good soul. Amin.

2 comments:

zaisha said...

Assalamualaikum...
Maaf kalau saya menyibuk di blog nie tapi... sedih sangat bila baca blog nie.. I’m ZaiSha…would like to share something with u guys…

FYI, arwah Mazariwan dah saya kenali sejak Darjah satu lagi di Sekolah Rendah Ledang, Tangkak...Kitorang panggil dia “Wann”.We all memang kawan baik (dah 23 tahun dah kami berkawan..) dari sekolah rendah – satu sekolah, masuk sekolah menengah walaupun tak sama sekolah, masuk universiti walaupun tak sama universiti dan sampai dah kawen pun kitorang masih close - my hubby pun kira ok ngan dia... boleh click togetherlah.. Tambahan lagi… kitorang 3 orang sekampung.. Tangkak..

Entah macamana Quite some time jugak kitorang lost contact.. kesibukan.. kerja, study, anak-anak, family... buat kitorang makin lama makin jauh...dah lama tak contact Wann..(about 1 ½ yr) Tapi awal tahun nie.. sampai raya aritu memang terasa sangat nak contact Wann balik Lebih2 lagi bila lalu depan rumah mak ayah Wann kat Tangkak… ternampak kereta Waja dia..tapi.. asyik2 cakap nanti lah.. nantilah...

Saya ingat lagi tarikh keramat tu 21/11/2007. Masa tu baru balik lunch… entah kenapa teringat sangat kat Wann.... because masa lunch with my friend, our topic is BEST FRIEND… Then, I tried to email him kat email address dia kat proton.. just to drop a “Hi” message..Tak lama lepas tu email tu tendang balik.. “ Reason: Remote SMTP server has rejected address”

Masa tu pelik jugaklah.. aikk.. takkan dia dah berhenti dari proton kot.. Entah macamana tangan saya gatal nak “google” nama dia. So saya pun pergi google “Mazariwan” and banyak sangat pautan yang ada nama dia… Saya pun click tu one of the blog named - diamonddreamers.blogspot.com (which happen is your blog)..Nampak gambar Wann.. Dalam hati kata wow… siap ada gambar, masa tu tak baca pun apa tajuk dia… lepas tengok gambar hati rasa tak sedap. Baca tajuk Al Fatihah for Mazariwan… Ya Allah…Apa nie… panic giler… kenapa boleh jadik macam nie…Tak mungkin… tapi memang sah gambar Wann… habis saja baca blog tu.. saya menangis tak henti2…Langsung tak boleh buat kerja… My subordinate pun terpinga-pinga… Sedih sangat… tak terkata apa…Ralat sangat kenapa dah 2 bulan lebih dia pergi baru saya tahu.. Orang pertama yang saya call – my hubby.. dia pun tak percaya. He thinks that I was joking.. Lebih2 lagi dengan suara yang tersekat-sekat saya cakap.. “Abangg.. abangg…, Wwwannnn.. Wwwannn… dah takde” “Dia pergi mana?” “Ddddiiiiaaaa dahhh meninggal”. Lepas tu both of us.. terdiam… I cannot stop crying.. dekat seminggu jugak arr.. sampai sekarang masih rasa ralat lagi… Bila teringat.. memang sedih lah.. Nasib baik my hubby was very supportive.. dialah yang banyak kuatkan semangat saya..

Tapi sampai hari ni, saya masih tak dapat nak terima kenyataan nie… Tiap kali teringat.. airmata nie automatic jer turun… Hubby ada jugak ajak pergi melawat kubur dia.. tapi saya rasa saya tak cukup kuat lagi nak pergi… Hubby pun banyak ingatkan ada hikmahnya saya tahu lambat, dia kata kalau saya tahu pada hari kejadian keadaan saya akan lebih teruk dari saya tahu sekarang…
He has the point jugaklah.. because dialah satu-satunya kawan saya yang lama bertahan… 23 tahun…

Memang sedih sangat.. orang yang kita kenal dari kecik sampai sekarang just gone like that..Dan yang lebih haru lagi, saya yang konon-kononnya known as his best friend adalah orang yang paling lewat tahu.. Sebab lepas saya dapat tahu on 21/11/2007 I tried to contact kengkawan lain kat kampong.. lagi buat saya sedih bile diorang kata… “Laa.. ko tak tahu ker?.. Aku tahu dah masa hari Wann meninggal hari tu..” “takkan ko tak tahu..” “ko kan kawan baik dia…” “Tak mungkin ko tak tahu…” “Sori..Ingatkan ko dah tahu, itu pasal kitorang pun diam jer.. Kitorang taknak sedihkan ko…” Saya pun cakap balik kat diorang “ Memang arr saya ngan dia kawan baik tapi takkan dia nak beritahu saya dia dah takder…”. NAk marah pun dah tak guna.. tapi Allah tu memang maha kaya.. dia bagi hint suruh saya contact Wann, pergi google nama Wann.. kalau saya tak google rasanya sampai sekarang saya takkan tahu dia dah tak ada…

Wann memang kawan yang baik.. he is very humble n tak pernah pun dia berlagak walaupun dari sekolah rendah lagi dia memang best student..masuk sekolah sains muar, pastu masuk ukm, pastu dapat scholar proton lagi… Dialah kawan berlumba belajar.. sekaligus mentor yang buat saya nak belajar dengan lebih tekun lagi… Selalu rendah diri.. walaupun pangkat dia dah besar kat proton tapi masih lagi cakap.. biasa-biasa jer.. biasa-biasa jer… Walaupun saya selalu cari pasal dengan dia, marah ker, kecik hati ker.. dia tetap cool je.. itu yang buatkan persahabatan kami boleh stay on… Yang paling saya ralat ialah kenapa dah lama saya tak contact dia… Saya bukan saja hilang Wann tapi saya hilang terus dan tak mungkin akan kembali lagi… Semoga rohnya dicucuri rahmat.. Saya yakin orang baik macam dia, memang Allah sayang dan tak sabar nak tempatkan dia dikalangan orang yang dikasihi… Al-fatihah…
Saya nak dia tahu yang saya dah lama maafkan dia.. dan saya tahu dia pun dah maafkan saya….
Buat keluarga dan anak-anak Wann… Maaf kerana tak menghadiri majlis pengebumian beliau. Alia n Aina n ... yr daddy always proud of you… take care of yr mummy…Contohi arwah daddy..yang selalu buat yang terbaik.. Buat Ina..Sekiranya Ina terbaca article ini… sabar lah hadapi dugaan ni. Kalau kami sebagai kawan dia tak dapat nak terima kenyataan ni. Saya percaya Ina lebih lagi.. tapi Allah lebih menyayangi dia… Moga arwah Wann tergolong dalam golongan orang 2 yang beriman.. Wassalam.

lilinbiru said...

thanks. to diamonddreamers, semoga arwah dicucuri rahmat

ina-mazariwan