Kesian Mimi

Mimi called me on my handphone about 12.30pm today, crying profusely..... My initial reaction was "Mengapa Mimi.. mengapa ni? Mengapa Mimi nangis ni?

"Along dan Angah dah habiskan 100 Plus Mimi." What a relief. I thought something real bad had happen to my only daughter. Apa tak nya, I ingat dia kena apa tah sampai dia meraung atau tengah kesakitan. It was about the 100 Plus that she asked Along to buy for her yesterday. Because she was purging with stomach upset the last 2 days, the doctor advised her to drink 100 Plus without the gas. But yesterday I forgot to buy her one. Later in the afternoon yesterday she reminded me about it and I told her to get Along buy one for using her money.

So bila dia balik sekolah tengahari tadi dan tengok 100 plus dia dah habis, melalak lah dia.

"Takpe, takpe, nanti on the way back nanti Ayah belikan Mimi 100 Plus botol besar ok. Mimi jangan nangis lagi. Nanti Mimi siap pergi sekolah Agama pulak ok" I tried to coherced her to cool down and bribe her with a Big bottle of 100 Plus. "Nanti Ayah marah dia orang ok."

Terdetik dan sedih jugak hati ni sebab Mimi dah takde tempat hendak mengadu lagi. Maknya dah takde. Abang-abang dia pulak kadang-kadang suka bully dia - bukan nak jaga dia. Dulu masa mak dia ada, mak dia boleh jugak protect Mimi dari abang-abangnya. Abang-abang dia bukan lah jahat sangat, tapi kadang-kadang nakal jugak. Ia lah nama pun adik beradik kan. Mesti lah ada gurau senda dan kadang-kadang gaduh sikit-sikit.

Tapi hari ni, hati ku rasa lain sikit. Nak nangis pun pun ada sebab mengenangkan anak gadis cilik sorang ni yang dah takde tempat mengadu. Dulu ada juga mak kat rumah tempat mengadu apa-apa hal. Pasal sekolah ke, pasal kawan-kawan dia ke atau pasal apa-apa yang dia nak cakap. Especially kalau semua abang dia keluar petang pergi padang bola, dia tinggal lah sorang-sorang.

Pernah satu hari dulu dia tanya: "Ayah, Mimi susah lah sekarang". So i tanya dia "Pehal pulak". Dia jawab "Mimi takde siapa nak cakap pasal hal perempuan".

"Cakap lah kat Ayah" I jawab lagi. Mimi jawab lagi"Ayah bukan perempuan. Susah nak cakap pasal hal perempuan kat Ayah." I jawab balik "Takpe cakap je." And our conversation ends there.

But I really understand her predicaments. She need a motherly love and motherly care. But I once told her that since her mom is not around anymore, she has to take care of herself like what I did when my father passed away when I was 8 years old. But being a little girl, she needs a lot of attention and I need to give her that. Can I? entah lah, but I will try. Kena pamper dia lebih sikit sebab dia seorang je anak perempuan.

Tapi kadang-kadang abang2 dia jeles jugek. "Eleh, ayah ni, asyik-asyik menangkan Mimi aje. Kalau Mimi salah pun, ayah menangkan dia. Kalau Acik buat, dah lama Acik kena dah." Acik was always the one who complaint. Apa tak nya, kalau Acik buat, memang Acik yang kena marah. Kalau Mimi yang buat, marah nya kurang sikit. Bukan apa, kesian jugek kat Mimi ni. At least Acik ada abang2 yang Acik boleh cerita tapi Mimi nak mengadu kat abang2 dia pun, lagi kena marah. Entah lah anak-anak aku 4 orang ni.

Tapi kesian jugak aku tengak si Mimi ni. Tapi kadangkala, manja dia terlebih-lebih jugek.